Anxiety over a forum anyone?

[ComeDayGoDay]

Agreed, CrossBow! Amen! Preachin' to the Choir! I'm glad we all seem to be thinking the same thing. It's so frustrating and infuriating. I'm not trying to get medication to abuse it, or to sell it or whatever....I want to be fully functioning member of society....a wonderful wife, mother....etc. I know my body the best. I have been "practiced" on for years and experimented on with multiple varieties of medication. I know what works for me and my chemistry. But...nooooooo....I can't go in and say "just give me this and this...." (well, with most doctors)...because somehow, if the patient seems to know more than the doctor as to what works better...then it's a knock at their intelligence and all the degrees they have. (Rolling eyes). Sure, you can have professional doctorate degrees and study text books, but each person is different. Big Pharma is toxic and should be monitored better...but then there wouldn't be money exchanging hands where it does now...and that wouldn't be fun, would it. The rich wouldn't be getting richer...I'm just irritated. It's not fair and so sad that the health of people (at least in the US) is up for grabs and in the hands of Big Pharma.

I am so happy to have found this forum. I feel very empowered with the choices I have now. I feel very supported when I read that other people are in the same boat. Thank you all.

[Bishop]

It's really sad when you pay to go to someone seeking help and after you've opened up and explained your situation and history only to find out that this knowitall has already decided what is best for you. Okay so you have finally found something that is working for you awesome I'm going to put you on something completely different. I walked out. Clearly he didn't listen at all. I already tried that and it made everything worse. Thanks for wasting my time doc. And that's when you head right on out that door. It's hard to find a good doc which is why it sucks so much more when you're insurance changes and you get to do it all over again. Ain't life a hoot!

[misterbeefy]

I really don't know how to start this. I was diagnosed with severe social anxiety disorder with panic attacks at about 22 years old. I went through so many drugs for about three years trying to find one that helped me and most made me even worse off than I was without them. Till one day my Dr gave me alps and voila it was a temporary fix to what I thought was unfixable.
Over the years I have learned I can live a normal life and manage my problem without taking a bunch of other crap. My 1mg or 2mg a day dose was all I needed to be productive. I am now married with two kids a small business owner and have felt for years I had solved the problem. Then My "Dr." decides it's time for me to stop this after 12 years of it working for me because they are addictive and now there are better alternatives.
This was the beginning of a new level of panic attacks I had never had. I was being tapered off and I could already tell things were going to get bad. After 3 months of being cut from 1mg +/- .5mg-1mg a day to .25 a day. I threw in the towel and found a source and have been stable for many many years but all good things come to an end sooner or later. Now I find myself in a predicament.
Forums are great when I don't have to say anything I can troll and find what I need without asking questions or being "seen". I break out in sweats when I come on here just to say welcome to people to get posts. I have scoured the forum looking for anything I might be able to help with or share my experience but someone always has the answer already posted. I hate when 20 people say the same thing on a thread it tells me they didn't read.
So am I crazy or is there other people that are like this? Have major anxiety over posts on a forum?

Yes, you aren't crazy.. benzos can make you have more anxiety at times. They just admitted recently the long term effects of benzos (I believe 2012 i was told).  I have a friend that got an an attorney when he quit and took him 3 appeals, but he saw the judge and got it.  Now his life seems awful, he says his feet sweat 24/7, he says its getting better every day on facebook.. but it's everyday.. literally. He's miserable. Says he has to live alone.  I don't want to live that way and completely agree with you there, that's why I'm here.. the quality of life. No one knows when there last day is, why spend it like that. To each their own I guess.  But yes, even the smallest things can give me anxiety, (i.e.) a dog bark.. (I have 3 dogs and the all get each other started).  Anyway yea if you are crazy, were both crazy!

[willie33]

I understand how hard it is to expose yourself to other people in a forum.

I felt afraid because I did not want to be judged or rejected. Instead, in this forum, I was accepted and even made friends. This forum is unique in that if you follow the rules, many will try to help you and sometimes just talk. The Admin and moderators here are great.

Isolation may make you feel safe, but you might miss out on making new friends and other good things.

Good Luck

[ComeDayGoDay]

I have a similar situation. After having a baby (and reluctantly, albeit necessary, getting off all medication during pregnancy), I went to a new doctor to start up my schedule of meds again. This included antidepressants, anti-anxiety, ADD and insomnia. It worked well for me as a whole. The new doctor wanted to start me on tiny doses of the antidepressants and refused to even consider to put me on the other meds. Even though I told her it is what I was prescribed for years before the pregnancy. It worked well. So, I just went along with her. After a couple months of upping the dosage, she "allowed" me to be put on ADD medication which helps with the side effects of the antidepressant. It was still a very low dose. She said all the meds were "addictive". Well....sure! But, I am fine and function BETTER on them. I am a better mother, wife and friend on them. We all know what a PITA it is to change doctors so I'm hanging in there a bit longer, but I am thinking about switching. But, starting over with new doctors is so hard and time consuming. I feel like I was a guinea pig and she wanted to be the one to find the cure of alllllllll my problems. She didn't like me telling her I had a solution that worked, that I just needed her to prescribe what I wanted. That's where this site has come in and helped, I took matters into my own hands. I take what I need when, because I know my body the best. It's so frustrating. Yes, doctors are so scared of their licenses being revoked. I think so often it's not about the care of the patient any longer. I kind of thought that some doctors get kick backs from pharmaceutical companies to prescribe meds all willy-nilly (yes, I just said that!  ) but, I'm starting to think that docs are getting nervous to prescribe things that are potentially addictive more and more.

I understand the social anxiety. Sometimes I have leaving my house, sometimes I hate taking my kids to playdates because I have to talk to other people, I have telephone anxiety, I hate answering the phone because I stress out about not knowing what to say...I even have forum anxiety too because I don't know what to write...it's easier to hide behind a computer though, that's for sure.

Sorry for any typos, my kids are screaming at me to feed them! haha!

Sounds like we are in very similar boats! You are right it is like guinea pigs. That's why they call it a practice they are practicing on you.

Medicine is no longer about helping the patient. It's now all about control.
Doc's prescribe meds to you for yrs. and get you dependent on them and then just cut you off outta the blue. Now they control you and make you jump thru hoops to try and get back to what helps you.
Doctors are also being controlled by Big Pharma and the government. They now have to toe the line and do as they're commanded to do even tho they know what needs to be done for their patients.

Big Pharma, which is just another government run entity with mega power, controls the doctors which trickles down to us. The powers that be now have control over all of us and can pretty much make us do whatever they want. Control is what they're all about and want to control EVERYTHING in our lives. They're doin' a great job at it too.

I've said it a thousand times, government needs to keep their noses outta medical decisions. Let doctors do what they've trained for and stop threatening them. Freedom in this country is now a thing of the past and when you've lost it, we'll never get it back. This is the New World Order at it's finest and it sucks, but we allowed them to do this to us by doin' nothin' about it. It wasn't like we were not warned of these things coming. It's just that too many people never thought this could happen in this country. So here we are and it will only get worse until people stop burying their heads in the sand and FINALLY stand up and fight back. Things are movin' in a very bad direction and will continue to until enough people "wake up" and demand our lives back. It won't be pretty or easy, but has to be done.

God help us all before it's too late, if not already.    

Cricket

Exactly! Its all about control. Let see just how far we can pull this jack ass without a rope.

"government needs to keep their noses outta medical decisions"... yes, yes, yes. I'm not sure if this will ever happen now... although my doc was complaining she barely makes anything due to licenses, insurances, etc... but thankfully that her husband is a cardiologist! ...  I just smiled, uncomfortably. She's kind, and she know I need her...so she knows she can say what she wants as long as it seems like small talk and we're "bonding"!    Sigh. I'm doomed! Haha

[Stealth38]

It makes me angry when I read of another fellow sufferer of a horrid crippling condition...Anxiety, being made to stop a drug that is helping them keep there heads afloat.
I totally understand the difficulty you face. I, however, would not go with the system of letting the doctors pull me off Benzo just because they are addictive. 
I DONT CARE IF THEY ARE!!!.... they work for my anxiety condition better than every other med they have thrown at me. I need a quality of life, which I choose to have with the consumption of benzo. Lucky for me my doctor and psychiatrist have put me back on benzo as part of my treatment.

Hope things are working out for you. 

[cmdline]

agree Stealth with what you say.think benzos are a life saver for many, thou trouble is when you have people who should be away thousands miles from it, abuse it, theres plenty of forums places kids even post how they want to get high etc,since its the most likely med to be found in someone's cabinet, also you have hard drug users that turn to it ,to either chase the high or mix the two.And the best one is usually celebrities which i dont think have issues with getting anything they want but when they decide to go full blast mix it with alcohol other crap and OD then media raves what a harmful drug it is, just because some knot mixed bunch of class a drugs and topped of with benzo.

ive been taking em for years and hardly ever moved past 4mg xanax as getting older realize that in many cases can do with much less even, yes it does hook one up and WDs are no joke ,but because it was spread like candy and getting to stage where most who would had 100 better alternatives were scribbed off as here take this, created mass hysteria and epidemic , so like in any cases because of few uneducated and famous they look to blame smth that really helps for good minority to live normal lives.

what boils me is that in many cases when you hear bans being issued its politicians who have no clue and usually pushing drug prohibition agenda, and as we know that works only well to fund underground world which leaves many genuine people stranded since lets be honest besides benzos ive no idea there is any other drug with proven track to stop anxiety/panic completely for duration granted its not a cure but a patch but most effective there is.

id like to see alcohol banned which kills thousands daily and leaves scars across everyones life in its way, but nah lets ban some drug that barely kills more then vitamin c every year.

[invisiblejungle]

It is amazing to me that many still think of alcohol not being the same as a d**g.  Alcohal is probably the worst d**g than all the others.  Maybe it's so someone can say, "I don't use d**gs"?

It's due to cultural conditioning. In our culture, alcohol, nicotine, and caffeine are the "approved" drugs.

[cutstack]

This forum is so welcoming that i get no anxiety here but I am always worried about losing sources on the boards since I rely on them for literally staying alive.

[alsmom360]

i Had anxiety over posts on other foruns. 

Here people are so nice, that i don't feel much stress. 
Plus there are people with so much knowledge and experience than me that my control freak mode doesn't kick in. It does when i can be in the leading pack (NOT the case here).

Hope you excuse my portuguese's english.

I feel the same way!  On another forum, i was IMMEDIATELY chastised for having a different opinion
(talk about ANXIETY)  I stayed around just to get my required posts so that
I could get the valuable information  The mods and admins on that forum would
jump on people so fast if it was something they didn't like that the poster put. 
Then the senior members would agree with the mods, admins and POST about it.
That's so RUDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then once people were against you, they looked for things to
pick on and ban you for. And then there were some who were the "know it all's" about every
subject I posted.  I swear they BAIT you on purpose waiting for you to mess up so they can
ban you.  Boy, some people grow a pair sitting behind that computer screen dont they?

I don't feel that way on this forum, it is a pleasure to give and receive feedback
and I feel people here really appreciate any information that everyone posts.  I've not
seen ANY negative posts that weren't warranted.  I can't tell you all how refreshing it is
to be a productive (i hope) member of a forum that is here for the purpose
of helping people and not ridiculing them!  


And with that, I'll end my 50TH POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  with this:  Thanks to everyone
for helping me out.  I've have received so much help here and some really good leads.
Just waiting now for my periodicals to arrive!
With my sincerity THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!