The math doesn't compute - I am sorry

[OldBoy]

Hi there OldBoy,

Thank you OB - I'm glad you still count me as one of your friends - no, of course you weren't berating either myself or anybody else.

You've made such progress - you're eating three times a day now and as far as i can see the zaps have been controlled now.  How are you feeling (moods/emotionally/overall)?

Have there been any further "loss of time" (seizures)?  How is the sleep?  OB while you were discussing posting here with Fire you lamented that you write "entirely too much about my issues and concerns" - even though you find writing down and posting here (am i getting that right?) to be therapeutic.  

You've nearly up to the post count to post in the more private part of the forum.  I see what you mean - that communion is therapeutic however communicating over the web brings with it a loss of privacy and that potentially is detrimental.

For now, looking forward to reading your next posts.

With very best regards,  Blacksocks

Hi Blacksocks,

So glad to hear from you...Fire had me worried there that I might have offended you somehow, and that certainly wasn't my intention!

Thanks for asking after my condition...It is honestly amazing what a mere .5mg of clon twice daily can accomplish.  I was skeptical at first of the low dosage, given my seizure resulted from an abrupt stop of 10+ years of 3mg daily of alp, but within two days, the zaps disappeared completely, within four, the losses of time stopped altogether, and with my 6PM dosage of clon and 5mg of Melatonin at bedtime, I get to sleep easily, and stay asleep until 5:30AM, which is my normal wakeup time.

The difference is remarkable.  I can hardly credit it, to be honest.

I was watching "The Counselor" last night, and this conversation struck me and had me thinking on it for hours...

Counselor: Will you help me?
Jefe: I would urge you to see the truth of the situation you’re in, Counselor. That is my advice. It is not for me to tell you what you should have done or not done. The world in which you seek to undo the mistakes that you made is different from the world where the mistakes were made. You are now at the crossing. And you want to choose, but there is no choosing there. There’s only accepting. The choosing was done a long time ago… Are you there Counselor?
Counselor: [distraught] Yes.
Jefe: I don’t mean to offend you, but reflective men often find themselves at a place removed from the realities of life. In any case, we should all prepare a place where we can accommodate all the tragedies that sooner or later will come to our lives. But this is an economy few people care to practice.

If I'm anything, I'm a "reflective man", and even before seeing the film, I had ordered a good supply of di@z, which I'll keep around in the event I lose my clon prescription and need to taper.  Further seizures are most certainly not on the agenda.

Be well, my friend.