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Muzicatty your first paragrapgh basically hit a nail on the head spot on how i feel,depressed angry etc,if i could i would just lie in bed most days,sleep is deprived since awake many times at night thus come day even after 10hours of sleep i feel like i could hit bed any time,come night and im boosted with energy and thoughts running trough my head up till 4 in the morning,thus get snappy easily during the day.

Now dont like sharing on public forum too much but ive never approached any doc in my life about anxiety/panic issues just taboo/ashamed topic.Since after hitting until 18 i brushed off most of the symptoms had good circle of friends social life and it wasn't an issue, high school/college it went down hill just became awkward in social situations, hard to focus on people, becoming agoraphobic in large crowds its like stepping back to being 7 again.

long story short eventually opened up to family, went to counseling which did nothing and hit the internet once i knew what helps with anxiety pretty much away jumped into online and took matters in my own hands, and for first time in life ive managed great for about 5-6 years then as these things go realized im stuck with two issues.Since dont live in states benzos where i am are basically on highest blacklist ER cases,did acquire small amount one time but it was like doc giving me coke it felt for that joke of a blister of 10x0.5 xans.

did try MJ in my years and its great but since its far away from legal you get what you get found it great for sleep but not smth that would work on daily or even weekly basis,thou its only a plant and great to chill when possible.

My cut down is due since im stocking up since im always few months short on supply meaning have always to last me couple months which only makes things harder since you get few weeks break but then you know your pile is running low daily.

also since do contract work whenever i get, so get really stressed so that puts me into situation where i need to up the dosage before i even out, not to mention my family thinks its depression mood swings even thou im past 30 now which is adult stage, since told em years ago but response was get over it, not an option when your brains are wired differently and this $hit runs in the family but relatives cope differently, but its obvious when you see them struggling with simple life tasks,and making it to be like end of the world.

one thing thou that makes me different i knew dangers of going on benzos,now id say its way bigger sacrifice then it seems, but as said alternatives none of them come close.I have respect for people that went to MDs when they first noticed and could, but when im on almost decade been doing it myself its not really and option to seek help even cost wise what i get online seeing any md would be like getting 2 months supply elsewhere minus all the explanations being refereed to handful of psychs etc,seems system is simple if i was shooting up id have no issues getting suboxone or whatever is given to people but with anxiety it seems government thinks meditation is all we need,or better just ignore the issue.Sorry for such rant but thats my story,and until i can help myself on my own terms,seems its only option.

Okay so in around 30 years ago I found a sympathetic Dr who prescribed diazapam about 20 mg a day for my anxiety, it was very effective for many years but by 24 yrs ago alprazolam was the go to benzo and I have been on about 3 mg a day since then.  I have been to the psychiatrists who all want to put you on those  antidepressants, I really tried but they just don't work for me.  I have a Dr. who writes for lorezapam 2 mg a day but it doesn't work I cannot explain why but it just doesn't so I get my alprazolam from alt sources reluctantly but I would prefer to get it from Walgreens.  Why can't the medical profession see us for what many of us are, people suffering from anxiety without relief.