Anxiety over a forum anyone?

[misterbeefy]

I really don't know how to start this. I was diagnosed with severe social anxiety disorder with panic attacks at about 22 years old. I went through so many drugs for about three years trying to find one that helped me and most made me even worse off than I was without them. Till one day my Dr gave me alps and voila it was a temporary fix to what I thought was unfixable.
Over the years I have learned I can live a normal life and manage my problem without taking a bunch of other crap. My 1mg or 2mg a day dose was all I needed to be productive. I am now married with two kids a small business owner and have felt for years I had solved the problem. Then My "Dr." decides it's time for me to stop this after 12 years of it working for me because they are addictive and now there are better alternatives.
This was the beginning of a new level of panic attacks I had never had. I was being tapered off and I could already tell things were going to get bad. After 3 months of being cut from 1mg +/- .5mg-1mg a day to .25 a day. I threw in the towel and found a source and have been stable for many many years but all good things come to an end sooner or later. Now I find myself in a predicament.
Forums are great when I don't have to say anything I can troll and find what I need without asking questions or being "seen". I break out in sweats when I come on here just to say welcome to people to get posts. I have scoured the forum looking for anything I might be able to help with or share my experience but someone always has the answer already posted. I hate when 20 people say the same thing on a thread it tells me they didn't read.
So am I crazy or is there other people that are like this? Have major anxiety over posts on a forum?

Yes, you aren't crazy.. benzos can make you have more anxiety at times. They just admitted recently the long term effects of benzos (I believe 2012 i was told).  I have a friend that got an an attorney when he quit and took him 3 appeals, but he saw the judge and got it.  Now his life seems awful, he says his feet sweat 24/7, he says its getting better every day on facebook.. but it's everyday.. literally. He's miserable. Says he has to live alone.  I don't want to live that way and completely agree with you there, that's why I'm here.. the quality of life. No one knows when there last day is, why spend it like that. To each their own I guess.  But yes, even the smallest things can give me anxiety, (i.e.) a dog bark.. (I have 3 dogs and the all get each other started).  Anyway yea if you are crazy, were both crazy!