Anxiety over a forum anyone?

[Noonehere]

I really don't know how to start this. I was diagnosed with severe social anxiety disorder with panic attacks at about 22 years old. I went through so many drugs for about three years trying to find one that helped me and most made me even worse off than I was without them. Till one day my Dr gave me alps and voila it was a temporary fix to what I thought was unfixable.
Over the years I have learned I can live a normal life and manage my problem without taking a bunch of other crap. My 1mg or 2mg a day dose was all I needed to be productive. I am now married with two kids a small business owner and have felt for years I had solved the problem. Then My "Dr." decides it's time for me to stop this after 12 years of it working for me because they are addictive and now there are better alternatives.
This was the beginning of a new level of panic attacks I had never had. I was being tapered off and I could already tell things were going to get bad. After 3 months of being cut from 1mg +/- .5mg-1mg a day to .25 a day. I threw in the towel and found a source and have been stable for many many years but all good things come to an end sooner or later. Now I find myself in a predicament.
Forums are great when I don't have to say anything I can troll and find what I need without asking questions or being "seen". I break out in sweats when I come on here just to say welcome to people to get posts. I have scoured the forum looking for anything I might be able to help with or share my experience but someone always has the answer already posted. I hate when 20 people say the same thing on a thread it tells me they didn't read.
So am I crazy or is there other people that are like this? Have major anxiety over posts on a forum?

Hi Noonehere,
No I don't think you are crazy or alone.  Thank you for sharing this--I think it is the beginning of a great topic that to my knowlidge, hasn't been touched on yet.
Wow. I can't even imagine the feeling of panic you must have felt hearing your doc say those words.  Did he/she explain what "advancements" have been made, and what if they don't work for you?  
I'm sure others will post their experiences, but know that we are here to help you with whatever kind of support we can give.
AH

Thank you for the kind words Audrey. Its very hard not to feel crazy at this point unfortunately. Yes from what I remember the Dr explained his case to me but it was the unknown that ruffled my tail feathers. When you have anxiety the unknown is the killer. It's been about 16 years ago now and I don't remember what it was I was going to be switching to because it never happened. I stayed on the alps and I never went back to him again. IMO if something works and allows you to maintain somewhat of a normal life why pull the rug out from under that person just to try new things. I really think Dr's are sadistic people that like to jack people around for fun. Just saying! lol