07-10-2016, 09:47 PM
Thank you for the kind responses everyone. I sadly have come across too many dr's who arent helpful. At this point, I am just happy to have one that writes me a drop of what I need and then I supplement it with IOP purchases. I have come across dr's who just want to push ssri's like crazy and I explain to them that perhaps I would try them had I not known 2 people in real life who forever are destroyed by those meds. I just cant bring myself to accept an ssri. I have been tempted. Viibryd is one that I am really hoping to find out more about. It's so sad because I am a good looking guy. I have decent genetics in the sense that I go to the gym and my body develops rapidly etc. and I get results. It's so tragic that my anxiety, insomnia and depression doesn't allow me to live life like a normal human. I often just am too anxious to enjoy the things that normal people do. My insomnia is just as bad as anyone on earths. Can't imagine someone having it worse. If not for some form of benzo or benzo type sleep aid, I would never get a single moment of sleep. I wish I could live without taking a pill. It's impossible. I believe my parents are sadly the cause of my problems. I wasnt raised in the best of conditions and now I have to deal with the aftermath on my own.