05-23-2016, 01:09 AM
Thank You for the welcomes everyone. I just gotta work my way back up on posts I had just hit 50 on the .com version b4 it vanished so I;m starting all over again. I'll get back there in time tho. I've been reading on here for months as a guest and finally joined so I could be part of the family again and get my 50 posts in eventually while contributing when I can. A little bit about myself, I've always had a little bit of anxiety but a really rough last few years has taken a toll on me. First I lost my house & all contents in a fire. Lost my daughter in a custody case i fought for years a few months later all while being denied being able to see her. My ex could only hurt me by using my little girl against me so she did, I love my lil girl so much. SO I lost the case through a loophole in the county the case was in and now I don't get to see her but the rest of my family is allowed to see her. The last I seen her was around xmas 2 yrs ago when I happened to stop by when my mother had her. She looked at me and then to my niece and said to her "my daddy is here" then walked up to everyone in the house and kept saying to them "my daddy is here". So now I get terrible anxiety when im around kids or my family and their kids bc I want my little girl there to so b4 I get a bad anxiety attack I have to leave the people I wanna be around the most. The meds help when I have them. I am so stressed by everything going on my body muscles ticks or jerks or jumps when I lay down or Im trying to relax. I researched what causes that and its an extreme buildup of stress. That is just a little bit of it or the tip of the iceberg. I know we all have or problems and thats why most of us are here, to learn from each other, have a little bit of fun, or just to talk. So that is a small part of my story and maybe how I landed here.