04-18-2016, 08:46 AM
Hey guys, I feel like I made it sound like I didn't have a severe problem.. I can't even leave my house sometimes... I really need this doctor to understand.. IN the past he used to RX me 3 different types of benzos at once.. I fucked it up by relapsing one 2 many times on heroin..
So now hes taking charge of me again.. its a long and very weird story... But basically my best friend died.. and his dad new my old Dr. and well I met him and we didn't recognize each other.. its was funny and weird..
So anyway.. he's pretty cautious. I have a emergency Nalaxone needle (pen) specially made for emergency on my desk.. But I never get like that anymore so ya..
The way I see it, is whats the harm?? I if I can't operate without benzo's ( which I hate to say is true ) Â then I need them.. And since that's the case why half ass it? I mean 3 mg? thats not enough!! I've been taking them for 16 years.. I got this thing called a tolerance... Sigh... I'm really going to plead... My doctor goes to Burning Man, so hes basically a hippie kinda.. Also he see's me for free (since he knows I'm screwed up in the head)
Anyway.. Yeah I'm going to tell him if  he doesn't then I will just have to get them from an IOP and that I don't want too...bleh... I will have to just beg and say I can't live without them and I think he'll see that.
So now hes taking charge of me again.. its a long and very weird story... But basically my best friend died.. and his dad new my old Dr. and well I met him and we didn't recognize each other.. its was funny and weird..
So anyway.. he's pretty cautious. I have a emergency Nalaxone needle (pen) specially made for emergency on my desk.. But I never get like that anymore so ya..
The way I see it, is whats the harm?? I if I can't operate without benzo's ( which I hate to say is true ) Â then I need them.. And since that's the case why half ass it? I mean 3 mg? thats not enough!! I've been taking them for 16 years.. I got this thing called a tolerance... Sigh... I'm really going to plead... My doctor goes to Burning Man, so hes basically a hippie kinda.. Also he see's me for free (since he knows I'm screwed up in the head)
Anyway.. Yeah I'm going to tell him if  he doesn't then I will just have to get them from an IOP and that I don't want too...bleh... I will have to just beg and say I can't live without them and I think he'll see that.