06-01-2024, 03:34 AM
Hi all i have known charon many many years and consider her a kindred spirit .
She has been there for me through good , hard , and sad times .
We lost contact one time many years ago and i puut a shout out on twittter if she read it or anyone knew chsron could she contact me .i think within a week we made contact .
I missed our chats and really taught we would never speak again .
She has been a voice of reason in my life a womans intuition.
I wish we could meet for a coffee .
But my immunotherapy failed and in the winter of my life .
Thats not going to be possible .im 48 i have terminal cancer and im not feeling cheated or regret .
I alwsys say
You might not belieeve in god .
But satan believes in you .
Im at peace with whats ahead .
I can look my maker in the eye .
Reason im writing this post .
I have a question .
Would you rather hasve a loved one alive in pain .
Or see them gone and at peace .
Im very much loved .and dont want my loved ones watch me in pain all the time .
Which is more important i seen my mother fight death for 9 days .
But i just wanted her suffering to stop .
Do i leave them with the tramautic memory of survival in agony .
Or do i let nature take its course .
Its an ethical question.
Any feedback appreciated .im conflicted . And sorry for not having something more uplifting .bbut the camaraderie here is like no other
She has been there for me through good , hard , and sad times .
We lost contact one time many years ago and i puut a shout out on twittter if she read it or anyone knew chsron could she contact me .i think within a week we made contact .
I missed our chats and really taught we would never speak again .
She has been a voice of reason in my life a womans intuition.
I wish we could meet for a coffee .
But my immunotherapy failed and in the winter of my life .
Thats not going to be possible .im 48 i have terminal cancer and im not feeling cheated or regret .
I alwsys say
You might not belieeve in god .
But satan believes in you .
Im at peace with whats ahead .
I can look my maker in the eye .
Reason im writing this post .
I have a question .
Would you rather hasve a loved one alive in pain .
Or see them gone and at peace .
Im very much loved .and dont want my loved ones watch me in pain all the time .
Which is more important i seen my mother fight death for 9 days .
But i just wanted her suffering to stop .
Do i leave them with the tramautic memory of survival in agony .
Or do i let nature take its course .
Its an ethical question.
Any feedback appreciated .im conflicted . And sorry for not having something more uplifting .bbut the camaraderie here is like no other