04-03-2017, 04:20 AM
(This post was last modified: 04-03-2017, 04:24 AM by Texas Chemist.
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Dream journals are a good idea. I always tell myself after having very lucid dreams that stay with me all day to write them down but never do...
For me, benzos have always been a way of AVOIDING remembering my dreams. A few Xanax before bed and that's it, wake up to the sound of my alarm refreshed, never groggy for more than 30 minutes and a coffee. That being said, when I would take morphine for pain I would experience night terrors (TBH I never minded them because I would 'consciously' awake in the morning and just remember WOW, those were some scary thoughts. HOWEVER, my SO would tell me I would wake her up by screaming in my sleep and talking either angrily or in a pleading tone, and actually quite coherently. She would rub me and try to wake me but I would just calm down and stop screaming/shouting and get silent.
After hearing this from her for a few weeks I would say alright, no more, and up my dose of Xanax or halcion at nighttime so she could get more rest. I'd wake up refreshed and my SO would tell me that I would only mumble a few times throughout the night but was much better and certainly no screaming.
Even in periods when I would only be taking benzodiazepine medication, lowering my dosage down to even 1 mg at night, I would never remember my dreams. I would only start remembering them after a few weeks when they had, for the most part, cleared my system. I used to think they were 'odd dreams' but to be honest, I'm not sure that's the case because I would have been so used to not remembering any dreams that I wasn't convinced that those dreams were deviations from one of my 'normal dreams' if that makes any sense.
I like remembering odd dreams. I actually love remembering any dreams!
I don't scare easily and after months of just waking in the morning getting ready for work, it's a relief, for me at least, to reflect in the shower in the morning at what a crazy adventure I had in my dream or ponder why certain faces/people from my life were involved. Why the setting in the dream was a specific combination of the different stages of my life, my age in the dream relative to others, how different things were intertwined and so on. O and yeah, I used to take a lot of 'lucy in the sky' when I was in college. LOL
For me, benzos have always been a way of AVOIDING remembering my dreams. A few Xanax before bed and that's it, wake up to the sound of my alarm refreshed, never groggy for more than 30 minutes and a coffee. That being said, when I would take morphine for pain I would experience night terrors (TBH I never minded them because I would 'consciously' awake in the morning and just remember WOW, those were some scary thoughts. HOWEVER, my SO would tell me I would wake her up by screaming in my sleep and talking either angrily or in a pleading tone, and actually quite coherently. She would rub me and try to wake me but I would just calm down and stop screaming/shouting and get silent.
After hearing this from her for a few weeks I would say alright, no more, and up my dose of Xanax or halcion at nighttime so she could get more rest. I'd wake up refreshed and my SO would tell me that I would only mumble a few times throughout the night but was much better and certainly no screaming.
Even in periods when I would only be taking benzodiazepine medication, lowering my dosage down to even 1 mg at night, I would never remember my dreams. I would only start remembering them after a few weeks when they had, for the most part, cleared my system. I used to think they were 'odd dreams' but to be honest, I'm not sure that's the case because I would have been so used to not remembering any dreams that I wasn't convinced that those dreams were deviations from one of my 'normal dreams' if that makes any sense.
I like remembering odd dreams. I actually love remembering any dreams!
I don't scare easily and after months of just waking in the morning getting ready for work, it's a relief, for me at least, to reflect in the shower in the morning at what a crazy adventure I had in my dream or ponder why certain faces/people from my life were involved. Why the setting in the dream was a specific combination of the different stages of my life, my age in the dream relative to others, how different things were intertwined and so on. O and yeah, I used to take a lot of 'lucy in the sky' when I was in college. LOL