03-31-2017, 02:41 PM
I tried to depend on my SO to help me with this so that each month when I came home with a bottle full of norcos, I would give her 2/3 and keep the other third because truth be told that was all I actually needed, and I also wanted to prevent myself from 'having too much fun' and because of course, it's always good to have a nice supply 'just-in-case' something happens.
I can be a very persuasive individual and when I would eventually run out early from 'having too much fun', I would beg and plead with her to tell me where she hid them and she would in turn give-in and give me the rest. I resented myself for putting my own inability to restrain myself onto her and eventually stopped asking her and forced myself to keep half the prescription aside and not touch it. It took many months but knowing that I was the only one who could fix that problem forced me to have more self control and ultimately grew stronger from it.
I know it can be really tough. For me, opioids were the hardest to control. Controlling my intake of benzos was always easier for me and as soon as I'm down by 50% more orders are placed so I haven't found myself in a tough spot in a very long time.
I can be a very persuasive individual and when I would eventually run out early from 'having too much fun', I would beg and plead with her to tell me where she hid them and she would in turn give-in and give me the rest. I resented myself for putting my own inability to restrain myself onto her and eventually stopped asking her and forced myself to keep half the prescription aside and not touch it. It took many months but knowing that I was the only one who could fix that problem forced me to have more self control and ultimately grew stronger from it.
I know it can be really tough. For me, opioids were the hardest to control. Controlling my intake of benzos was always easier for me and as soon as I'm down by 50% more orders are placed so I haven't found myself in a tough spot in a very long time.