Disciplined Dosing

[45ACP]

I won't lie, I'm an addict or more alcoholic as that was my drug of choice. Went through rehabs and prison for it but have been a teetotaler five years now. My trouble is with such strong meds. I don't crave them. It sometimes I need them. Plus now I'm dealing with other health problems. I won't get into the 12 steps not the forum plus I disagree with their philosophy and well it's never been for me. But now I feel great just need some occasional relief. So my wife controls my dosage. She keeps them hidden from me and knows when I need them. It's not perfect but it works and we trust each other.  She's been through to much shit with my drinking but I think we've come together since my last drink that landed me a long bird. Anyway for me it's about trust and using/having people you can rely on and get feedback from if you start making bad decisions/manipulating. I know it sounds cheesy but I've changed everything about my life since being released. I know it's an AA saying but my higher power are people I implicitly trust not the knobs down the local.

Thank you SO MUCH for sharing...I can really feel where you're coming from - I'm not exactly the same but have many similarities, so I really appreciate it! Thanks