02-19-2017, 08:41 PM
I can totally relate to this.
Im currently tapering off sleep medicine and get given the exact amount for the month, i always feel like i have lots on the first day. Im meant to take a whole one one night, then i have half the next night half, it is so tempting to take a whole one on nights where I'm not meant to and if have still been awake at nights i have taken another half sometimes to try to sleep. I now find myself with only the right amount to get to the next script with only half a dose. I also supplement it with a natural tablet and phenergan, I'm literally useless at doing this but know that the end of doctors prescribing for me is coming so i have to get control.
The part that i try to hold onto is that i can do it and function on the lower dose, it is literally me thinking i can take more as i have them. The thought of having none at all is worse and i won't intentionally leave myself with none, but whilst that is not a problem i will up my dose. I think part of it for me is just the fact of having something for my brain and not actually what the medicine does itself.
I can't offer advise as I'm my own worst enemy but wanted you to know your not the only one fighting this battle. When i was younger and was first prescribed them my parents used to give me my dose and lock the rest away, i would hunt high and low for the rest and if i found them i would always have more. Its actually quite scary how it becomes such a huge part of your life, id be so happy if i could stop it but i honestly don't know how.
Im currently tapering off sleep medicine and get given the exact amount for the month, i always feel like i have lots on the first day. Im meant to take a whole one one night, then i have half the next night half, it is so tempting to take a whole one on nights where I'm not meant to and if have still been awake at nights i have taken another half sometimes to try to sleep. I now find myself with only the right amount to get to the next script with only half a dose. I also supplement it with a natural tablet and phenergan, I'm literally useless at doing this but know that the end of doctors prescribing for me is coming so i have to get control.
The part that i try to hold onto is that i can do it and function on the lower dose, it is literally me thinking i can take more as i have them. The thought of having none at all is worse and i won't intentionally leave myself with none, but whilst that is not a problem i will up my dose. I think part of it for me is just the fact of having something for my brain and not actually what the medicine does itself.
I can't offer advise as I'm my own worst enemy but wanted you to know your not the only one fighting this battle. When i was younger and was first prescribed them my parents used to give me my dose and lock the rest away, i would hunt high and low for the rest and if i found them i would always have more. Its actually quite scary how it becomes such a huge part of your life, id be so happy if i could stop it but i honestly don't know how.