Non benzo meds for anxiety

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Guys Update…
This anxiety preventing me from sleeping must be truly in my head BECAUSE

I took the z drugs (doctor gave me this last week) one night slept really well
The next night I took nothing and just knew “if I needed to they would be there and I could take them (7.5mg)”

I slept - with nothing (melatonin is my nothing but you get me)

I woke up once and thought should I take it now? But I was relaxed and though narrr I’m okay I’ll just try and sleep and I did

So it feels like fear of not sleeping because I slept when the dread and fear wasn’t there.

Has this ever happened to anyone? I’m feeling slight guilt and self hate for being able to sleep. Like I’m a drama queen.
I’m telling you, I honestly usually have terrible time including punching myself and sobbing and crying. Wishing I could be asleep.

So it’s in my head
Because I had the Z drugs (on hand) and I knew they (would work) I could relax.
Does this seem reasonable?

Please don’t judge me bad. I know I’m not perfect or umm I know it’s all about me. I do apologise for that. I just wanted to get feedback on this because I had posted hear about this stuff and now it seems so little. Part of me wants to celebrate and another part wants to berate myself for being so weak.
But this is good isn’t it?

As I type I’m thinking actually it’s god news. I think I am surprised though it WAS anxiety. I’m surprised it was anxiety as I was convinced it was physically insomnia.

Hi Connie,
That's fantastic that a. you got your doc to script you a z drug, and b. you were able to sleep without actually using it.  
Don't ever feel guilty about getting a good nights sleep.  I've had chronic insomnia fot close to 25 years. There have been sooo many nights with little to no sleep, that ehen you finally get one, take it and roll with it. I take a different z drug when I can get it.  I think it's great that you know it's there for you to use "just in case."

Be careful using clonodine as a sleep aid though.  I've tried this and it worked at first.  Then I realized it was working no by dropping my blood pressure so low that I was just passing out.  I've heard of some doctors using it for anxiety and sleep, but IMO it isn't safe.