Non benzo meds for anxiety

[connie8472]

Guys Update…
This anxiety preventing me from sleeping must be truly in my head BECAUSE

I took the z drugs (doctor gave me this last week) one night slept really well
The next night I took nothing and just knew “if I needed to they would be there and I could take them (7.5mg)”

I slept - with nothing (melatonin is my nothing but you get me)

I woke up once and thought should I take it now? But I was relaxed and though narrr I’m okay I’ll just try and sleep and I did

So it feels like fear of not sleeping because I slept when the dread and fear wasn’t there.

Has this ever happened to anyone? I’m feeling slight guilt and self hate for being able to sleep. Like I’m a drama queen.
I’m telling you, I honestly usually have terrible time including punching myself and sobbing and crying. Wishing I could be asleep.

So it’s in my head
Because I had the Z drugs (on hand) and I knew they (would work) I could relax.
Does this seem reasonable?

Please don’t judge me bad. I know I’m not perfect or umm I know it’s all about me. I do apologise for that. I just wanted to get feedback on this because I had posted hear about this stuff and now it seems so little. Part of me wants to celebrate and another part wants to berate myself for being so weak.
But this is good isn’t it?

As I type I’m thinking actually it’s god news. I think I am surprised though it WAS anxiety. I’m surprised it was anxiety as I was convinced it was physically insomnia.