09-24-2018, 04:43 PM
(09-24-2018, 04:22 PM)Wannabenormal18 Wrote: I Am totally stuck. Am in my early to mid 30s, insomnia/depression and anxiety made me drop out of school. I’m totally lost. I take medication to go to sleep. I have horrific anxiety and depression. It’s hard for me to get up and take a shower sometimes. The dr put me on benzos and Zoloft but the benzos are temporariy masking the anxiety but I’m still depressed as shit. The Zoloft hasn’t helped me. I simply can’t go back to school or have a normal job in the condition I’m in. I want to live. I really do. I just don’t know what to do anymore
keep your head up, recently i posted some personal stuff around, i havent been diagnosed but can tell for sure i have anxiety plus seasonal depression that flares up bad, bad as in rage destruction thoughts, my motivation goes from 110 to 0 mood swings etc. Your getting help and you know you have an issue, im against seeing docs as where i live you get bounced like a muppet and costs a fortune, id rather speak with people i dont really know that have more wisdom and went myself out. As getting motivated etc and out from the cloud i cant give much advice, can you take some personal time, holiday or something. I feel often trapped benzos anxiety depression being low achiever no confidence and list goes on. One thing i realized i can do things be happy in my own mind, im different i dont seek goals, hell i even prefer to be single, what gets to me is the society and norms from what others expect you to be and do this totally gets on my gears, we live in such diverse world and culturally we are often fcked > dont want to curse but but this gets me all the time, you should be doing this and that reaching for whatever it is money, better job being model citizen, i just want to explore world have experiences, yes work is part of it, but it doesnt mean i have to be stuck in 9-5 for 40 years until i can retire lookback on all the opportunities i missed instead following someone else ideals what i should done.