05-06-2018, 03:58 PM
Hello cmdline. I haven't seen many of your posts but this also sounds like you may be dealing with more than you think. Depression can often manifest like this. I know the feeling, that life has passed you by, that you're too late, that its all over for you. My only word right now is to know that it is never too late to start something. People make second careers later in their life more often than you may think. Do you or have you played sports? They can help if you really get into it. Same with friends, all of them abandoned me and currently have no social life, but it doesn't matter at all, be patient. Be rational, have you really not accomplished much in life? I don't believe this, you probably have done more than you think. The past is the past, no matter how unfortunate it is. Make a new chapter.